A calming presence

What was the best compliment you’ve received?

I have been told a bunch of times that my presence is calming.

Hear this out,..

While other people appreciate how authentic I am, some have told me “Val you don’t have to be entirely authentic” This blows my mind every time. I would never ever want to torment myself like that. Genuinely, those are the people I run away from because how on earth can you advise a person, on not being entirely their true selves and somehow you manage to sit down with yourself and be okay!!!

I am still trying to find out why authenticity should be such a bother to people.

On Sunday, another sweet soul told me “you are overly kind, and you should change that” I lost it. I promise I broke down. Totally.  I’m not daft, I know when to be chill and when to bring out my claws, I just don’t like reacting to things that are bound to disturb my peace. I choose my battles. Smartly. Most times I’m just chill.

In the last few weeks I’ve been told about a bunch of things that I shouldn’t be, and everything I’ve been told not to be, is what I love being.

Again, in the last four weeks alone I’ve been told by more than four people, “when you love, you love extremely and that’s where you go wrong”

In a world where I’ve been told, don’t be too authentic, don’t be too kind, don’t love extremely, I wouldn’t know how to exist I promise. So the smartest thing to do is smile at those remarks and rub them off as soon as they are thrown at me. It’s a messy world out here.

I’d love to protect my cacoon.

That was a whole rant I know, but the point is, the most rewarding compliment I’ve received is about my presence being calming.

Cheers🫶

Not even close!

“Things didn’t entirely turn out to be what I wanted them to, they turned out to be entirely how they should have been.”

Not even close.I had a whole different view of what my life would have been today.

Even though things didn’t entirely turn out to be what I wanted them to, they turned out to be entirely how they should have been.

I learnt to be present as I do the best I can.

So yeah, I couldn’t be more grateful.

Oooh yeah!

Do you ever see wild animals?

I question my sanity most times because why did I just laugh so hard at this question!!

Have you ever laughed so hard at something then someone next to you asked “sa unacheka” – to mean what are you laughing at. And it’s usually not a polite question at all.

But sure, I see wild animals. I see a bunch of them. I experience them. I feel them.

I think about Sagalla every so often.

“Things that fascinate me might come off as very mundane. But again, that’s just me okay.”


Sagalla

I started writing, then I was told that there was a Christmas choral performance and I had to run for that. I loooove holidays. I mostly thrive in December.
Okay so here goes…….

I’d be damned if I said no!
I have a few but I’ll fill you in on about one. I am a country girl. Things that fascinate me might come off as very mundane. But again, that’s just me okay.

So back in 2022 January, that was the first actual time I was going to be entirely far from home. It was daunting emotionally, but let’s not talk about that now. I have a history of telling a thousand different stories in one story haha!

Okay so back in 2022 I was to move to a place called Voi, Taita Taveta – Kenya.
I knew one girl from there whom I’d gotten acquainted with. And because technically I didn’t have any furniture or a house to begin with. I was to spend my first few days at her home, where she lived with her grandma. Cute innit? Yes. 😅.

So the village was called Sagalla.  A whole definition of the place I dreamt of settling. It was cute. So cute.

It was hilly, and full of greenery.
The next morning, I woke up to pure blissfulness. The hills were misty. The freshest air I’ve ever woken up to. The homestead was a buzz of calming activities, I’m talking about milking the cows, feeding the chicken and sweeping the yard.
For a minute I was like, can I just send my letter of resignation before reporting, because I just had a moment of realization that probably that life right there was everything I’d ever wanted, to feel complete.

I think about Sagalla every so often. So clearly that makes it a favorite place. Okay cue “favourite girl by Darkoo” I guess this should work for now

I gotta run back to the Christmas chorals.

What makes a good neighbor?

What makes a good neighbor?

I know we all deserve a community around us. The occasional socializing is pretty much profound.

But what makes a good neighbor really? I don’t know. That isn’t within me to define. But I know as a neighbor I should have boundaries.

I’m a big introvert, so the most socializing I do with my neighbors is the usual “hi”.  I mean as long as they are safe and okay that’s just it.

But I also know that if they ever need any form of help that is within my capacity I’d be glad to come through for them.

I love my space, and I wouldn’t appreciate occasional and impromptu visits, I know they wouldn’t appreciate the same.

From personal experience, I don’t think it’s wise to make friends out of neighbors. Neighbors should just be neighbors.

Honestly I don’t know what makes a good neighbor. This was just me blubbering (Sighs weirdly).