One among the things I regret from the days when I wasn’t fully participating in my own life is that I didn’t hype myself up when I turned 26. Context….my birthday is on the 26th of December.
And that’s just one of those things I can’t go back in time and rectify. I mean, I can’t go back to being 26, but I can definitely make a conscious decision to participate fully in my life. I already made that decision anyway. Except for the days when I intentionally want to get drunk and get completely faded… (Hey, dearest judge, you’re allowed to wear your cap here. Judge me) But yes, I have those days too.
May was tough financially.
It’s crazy because I’m now officially convinced that the universe truly has ears. While saying goodbye to April, I confidently declared that I’d healed my attachment to money being the thing that dictated my worth. I spoke so boldly, and the universe responded, “Okay honey, hold my beer. Let’s see how we’re going to test that in May.”
And test it, it did.
But I also saw just how much I’ve detached my worth from my finances. Do I want to be rich? Please. In my head, I already identify as a millionaire. But before I get there, I’ve learnt to be wealthy. Because abundance isn’t always about money, okay honey? Good.
Anyway, besides the financial constraints, I had the most beautiful month.
I like describing May as the final stretch of my healing. Because I dared myself. I went poking at scars that had already healed, just to find out whether they had truly healed.
And they had.
May was beautiful.
I’m glad I traced my steps back into 2024 and finished the unfinished trails. I’m incredibly proud of how much my nervous system has matured. I love the calmness. Honestly, that’s everything I prayed for, for the longest time.
I also noticed the missing puzzle piece I needed, and I’m genuinely working on it.
You can truly love yourself, but if you don’t genuinely believe in yourself, it’s a beautiful road to nowhere. You’ll keep ending up in the same loop.
That has been my greatest discovery in May.
And every day, I remind myself to be fully present in my own life, so that I won’t leave trails behind that require me to return and finish them years later. I’m finishing the trails that need walking now, while they’re still in front of me.
June.
The second half of the year.
Let’s do this, okay?
Just like the last two months, I want you to surprise me. But this time, I’d appreciate a lot more smiles in the process. Surprise me positively.
To every soul who bumps into this, I’m wishing you alignment. May your month of June be full of ease.
Cheers to seasons of victory. (Cairos – seasons of victory). Lol. I just learnt that from “She Drips Glory” on TikTok. The cairos bit, I mean.
Okay, bye. For real.
Shadow to my light. 
Nice piece, who drew that eye?
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I did hun….
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A powerful reflection on intentional living. Being present enough to complete today’s journey rather than postponing it for tomorrow is a lesson many of us need. Wishing you a fulfilling and victorious June.
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You’ve said it well 💯.
Being present enough to complete today’s journey. That’s the whole point. Thank you for stopping by and thank you so much for the well wishes. May your everyday be filled with good things this June Dennis.
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