What’s really going on Injairu?
It has been a little over 5 days and it is almost like you have nothing to report about?
I know I write when I’m overly hurt or when I’m in love or when eventful/ extremely hurtful things are happening in my life. Somehow the adrenaline seems to work wonders on my creativity.
Lately I have been a normal human being. Out of trouble. Out of messy situations or rather situationships. Peaceful. Less opinionated. More mysterious. And I do not know what to report home about being normal.
So technically, being normal means my creativity is under maintenance. I donno! This sounds sort of toxic.
I love being normal though. I am not even trying to mess around with fate. I won’t even dare it. I know what happened to me the last time I tried. So kids, take it from me don’t you dare dare fate (🤣my dad jokes be killing me).
I gotta confess though, in as much as I’m not even writing as much as I would love to, I am genuinely loving the peace that “normal” breeds.
I bet I just need to learn how to tap into my creativity besides using it as a coping mechanism. As in tapping into my creativity as a normal functional, peaceful grown woman.
Life being calm and peaceful and having a regulated nervous system isn’t a formula for boring Valary. Get that. You prayed for it alright.
Or maybe, I’ll probably come back to report about an old flame I brought back to life. Gotta play with fire a little.
Yoh yoh yoh yoh! Kidding. I love it here. In fact looking past the mundane, I am actually thriving.
Calmly working my way through becoming a baddie with a Benz, you know what I’m saying. A country girl with a Benzie? No I think a baddie with a Benz has a nice feel to it. (Intrusive thoughts winning).
I thought about editing this with ChatGPT to make it sound a little serious, but no! I love it playful. I love my things a little more playful I mean. I’m a total kitten when I’m in my element.
I bet this was a good waste of your one minute right? No? C’mon !It doesn’t hurt to admit joy.
Stay peaceful or maybe playful.
Cheers

…yes, you…
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Haaah!
I know
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”So technically, being normal means my creativity is under maintenance. I donno! This sounds sort of toxic”….
I recall reading and nodding because of how relatable it was. I write less when I am in a stable mental space 🙊 But I guess it’s with most creatives.
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🤣 but it’s genuinely unfair,
I honestly think there’s a way we can rewire our brains into working otherwise..
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I’ve tried to re-wire my brain but Lo and Behold !! 😅😂 – It’s actually Toxic in some way.
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🤣so until then, let’s just go with the flow hun
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