Author: Miss Injairu

This is my best kept muse. Have fun.

Vibe

What is a word you feel that too many people use?

It’s the latest descriptive verb. It has stayed around for a while and honestly almost everyone uses it 😂.

I have this friend who really resents that word but somehow she just can’t help it, it almost always happens subconsciously. You just find yourself throwing the word around.

“it’s giving a weird vibe”

What brings me peace

I know a lot of  chaos in my life in the past was a result of me not being myself to the core.

I’ve thought so hard about this. It’s almost like inside my heart I genuinely know what entirely brings me peace, but putting it into words like this is more like a puzzle.

At my big age though, I know a lot of chaos in my life in the past was a result of me not being myself to the core. Hiding parts of me really did rounds on me.

So what brings me peace is me being entirely myself to the core. That’s my straight path for me to journey towards understanding myself, those around me and my surroundings.

Today’s sunset.

There’s a familiarity in today’s sunset.

It is soft. It is serene. It is shadowy. Falling on walls  leaving traces of rays and patterned shadows.

It is the kind of sunset that gets me giddy and scared all at once. It’s  giving me a dejavour. Asin I have felt this emotion before, not once. I love it. I want it to stay around. But it is scaring me, I want it to pass quickly. 

I am in my head recalling all the spaces and places I’ve had this feeling from. 

I remember vividly I wrote about this kind of sunset back in 2021 somewhere in May. 

It leaves me with such a mix of emotions I can’t even make it make sense.

Cheers.

Slow living, but in my version.

I am in a phase where I am so in love with life.


About a year ago, I was so insecure about my finances. There’s someone who would constantly ask me “why have you placed so much of your self worth on money?” Having that mindset really did rounds on my self worth.


I know, we live in a world where money unlocks almost everything if not everything. Don’t get me wrong I want to get to a place in my life where I will be secure financially. But I am also learning not to attach my worth to that.


So in between my financial frustrations, I quit. Weird right? No. The job I was working was going to kill me, literally. I woke up one day and I couldn’t stop thinking about quitting. That idea played in my head for almost 3 months. Then finally on a very humid day, I wrote a three line resignation email and I was out.


I know it’s pretty much hectic to land a job now. I have sent a couple of applications. Then I took a break.


For a minute it almost felt like, I was moving through life without any purpose. So I decided to pay more attention to my days.


Yesterday, I was listening to a very gracious sweet soul from YouTube. The title to her video read “Almost 30 with no goals in life”. Well that piqued my interest because I could relate. I listened to her and I was blown away. Because at one point, I was so caught up in planning. A loop of over planning and never just actualizing. I took a pause on that.


Lately I noticed, I live my days as they come. I simply decided as long as I do one wholesome thing in a day that counts for something.


Today I woke up and did my normal morning rituals which include; praying, meditating, journaling, cleaning up then figuring out what next.  I decided to clean the yard. It was super therapeutic. After breakfast, I’ve decided I’m going to crotchet.


Thinking about how life has been playing out lately just makes me break into a huge grin.


I know this might not work out for most people but it is serving me now. I am looking at myself from a whole different lens. I love myself more. I see my worth. I am peaceful.
I am basically just pursuing myself currently.
That’s all that matters in this moment and time.
This is my version of slow living.

Cheers.