I am not a city girl. I get really overwhelmed by big cities, I made peace with this already.
I love small intimate towns though. I love experiencing them.
So let me fill you in, it has been two months now since I threw in the towel at my previous job. No, not because I was defeated but because it was taking a bad toll on me. I am among those people who quit without a plan B. For that reason I haven’t been talking about my quitting to many people, because most of them won’t just understand okay. Not that I am less ambitious or less driven but I am grateful I made that decision. It’s crazy the number of times I have said this in the last two months.
I am manifesting a remote job. The flexibility that comes with working remotely. Why? Because other than loving small intimate towns, I desire to be a very present family woman. Haah I am grateful that lately I do not shy away from admitting certain things publicly without taking any walks of shame. That is my way of being authentic.
About loving small towns, I am writing this from a small town called Mwea. I love it. I love the experiences. Yesterday I decided to go get my hair done. I do this thing where I theme my months. So May is Chapter five of Elegance and abundance.
Since quitting and way before quitting I had neglected myself. That is the major reason why elegance had to be included in the theme for this month. The lady who did my hair was so gracious, a darling. She is among the people who will be lingering on my mind when I travel back. I am not quite sure where I’ll be traveling back to yet. But I know it is going to be a journey of good energy, good memories and abundance.
While job hunting for the remote jobs, the imposter syndrome won’t just let me be. It got me questioning way too many things that I should not even be questioning. My heart breaks when I start questioning my writing. I love writing. I love words. I love quotes too, a little too much. Boyfriend does not understand why I love quotes. But I just love quotes. God bless Pinterest and Threads.
This is just a gentle reminder to keep good thoughts and have good intentions.
Cheers to abundance and a worthwhile month of May.
I might not write beautifully, with the most polished grammar and perfect imagery but I know I write passionately and authentically. With that it shall be well.
Shadow to my light. 