Cheers 2023

Hey, so here we go again, happy new year 2023. Trust me I am not mocking you here. I am being brutally genuine. It just came to my realization that, I spent the better part of this month focusing all my energy and thoughts on how much I want to ensure my mental health is healthy (trust me I am aware of what I’ve done there). So to everyone I wished a happy new year at the start of January, trust me I just did it out of the modesty of replying back…no trust me that is not supposed to be as rude as it sounds.

Give a girl a break, on 31st December I had a bad melt down. I fell in tears. For a million reasons I was really scared of stepping into 2023 with all my mess. I said a small prayer amidst my tears, then I slept. The previous year was quite a rollercoaster. I do not know whether everyone else is being utterly honest about this, just a weird coincidence that everyone I interact with has something to say about how their mental health was rudely tested in 2022. Well okay, let me grant you all the benefit of doubt peeps. Let me assume that it was a wave that everyone was supposedly meant to go through. Luckily we survived the wave, just like how we survived COVID.

So yes I noticed all my energy has been entirely focused on making sure that I keep my mental health in check. It’s only now that I’m diving into 2023. I’m not the kind who comes up with resolutions. My anxiety cannot handle all the pressure that comes with working on resolutions. But this one has to be quite different, that’s why I am focusing almost all my energy on mental wellness. That’s my goal. Heaven knows how much I was in survival mode last year. That’s a pretty much ugly place to be stuck at. You just live. No motives. I honestly never got anything good done in 2022. I’m not here to boast about how much unproductive my year was. I’m just here to remind myself that I should learn from it. I’m getting the hang of being self aware and catching myself every other time I am about to fall into old bad habits. Clap for a girl. Follow suit!! don’t just clap. Let this be a year that we do not go about teaching people about mental wellness. We are informed enough up to this point. So yes, I think my reasons for bringing my wishes late are validated. Cheers.