Shadow to my light.

The December mood already kicked in (I don’t know whether it’s just my thing or do you all get it?). It might be a mindset thing I don’t know.

It comes with some wind of laziness. I’m in the corporate world so it might just get me in trouble real soon.

I have been late to work throughout the week (No one is yet to give me a lash, I guess my stars are aligned).

I live off grid in Taita Taveta County.

Usually, we use motorbikes to move around, also known as “Nduthi” over here.

You are lucky if you are able to find a reliable “Nduthi” guy. Mine is sent from heaven. He is morally upright and very reliable.

Today, he made me realize I have been complaining the entire week. Majorly about fatigue and work. I guess today was his breaking point. I started, one second into it he cut me short and went like “unafaa kushukuru lakini,wajua Kuna wale ambao wanatamani kazi kama yako” ( I should be grateful, there are those who would love to have it).

He said the words in the most perfect coastal accent that I’ve never heard from him before.

I went back in my head and comprehended over his words. Usually we banter all the way to work. Today we had a very silent ride. Weird. His words nudged my heart a little too hard.

For today, I have decided I will try not to complain about anything. I am letting gratitude wash over me. Let’s see how this plays out.

I am allowed to nag about a toxic work place though right? Yes thanks. 😅

Quite a while since I wrote.

Life has been happening, don’t get me wrong. It has been happening in a very beautiful style.

Things are unfolding. Wounds are healing. People are growing from their bad habits. There is an entire revolution happening. It’s giving me a thrill of wanting to see what life will be in the next 40 years.

Well for me, I’m growing pretty much comfortable in my skin. I am appreciating myself more. I’ve come into terms with a lot of things I was running away from.

Ego is such an ugly thing you know.

I’ve been surprising myself so much lately. I even started posting on YouTube again. I am so comfortable doing anything that brings joy to my heart, no matter how cringe.

I love it here. I love the home I’ve created inside my heart. No chaos. Everything is organized even when it doesn’t look like it. My lovely heart🌷 I am so proud of it, we (me and my heart )are at a place where we can even organize our emotions. We know which emotions are to be prioritized. We are so much aware of the ones which are not supposed to be welcomed. I don’t know how we got to this point. I won’t even question the process.

I am just so proud that we (me and my heart) got here. It has been a tough stretch. A long time coming. That has been life lately. Beautiful.

I am sitting here comfortable just watching all these unfolding. Surreal. I love it here.

Cheers.