Today in the morning, I do the curtains, and there’s this shadow cast on my bed. It’s coming through the window because my bed is right there by the window. So in my head I’m like, “Okay, so earth is doing that thing where I notice shadows in very unusual places.”
I raise my curtain slightly to confirm whether it’s just the curtain but no, it’s not.
And I love realizing these insane little things I can’t explain like a normal human, but they happen to me often. Like those late afternoons or early evenings when weird shadows fall on buildings… it’s the usual sunset but in a completely different way, and it happens maybe twice a year. I usually notice this mostly in August.
According to my findings…which, please, don’t fact-check, because even I don’t fully understand what I’m trying to say…it makes perfect sense in my head though, okay?
But I just know that on my lazy days, I can never actually stay lazy in bed because the sun is usually directed right at me. (I bet God did that intentionally because He knew.)
But today? I can’t feel that sun, and it’s sunny outside. Very sunny.
Okay, let me stop with that.
I’m going back to YouTube Premium specifically because I haaaaaaaaaate this ad….“Do you suspect that you’re being cheated on?”
Come on, please!! I loathe that ad.
And before you even say, “Val, it’s probably your algorithm,” no sir!
I binge on Joyride, countryside content, therapy and wellness videos, workouts, and this doctor I love who teaches self-healing without medication….it’s hard to explain that part. I watch geography stuff too. Like yes, please, I want to understand Madagascar in all its uniqueness.
So I genuinely don’t understand how YouTube thinks I suspect I’m being cheated on (I am yelling). Because first of all…by who??? 🤣
But say, for instance, I ever found myself in a situation where I suspected someone was cheating on me (God forbid…Riswaaaaa)… I don’t think I’d go snooping to find out. Woooooooh!
That’s literally walking myself toward pain. Hapana!
I’d rather have it find me when I’m not looking. I don’t like stress, please.
In better terms, I’d call that detachment not ignorance.
Knowing that either way, I’ll be okay.
I know pain too well, and I’ve learned to embrace it, so…
I wanted to talk about the sketch pad I was gifted and how my sketching is coming along, but my intrusive thoughts won again. So I guess that will be a story for another day.
Sending you love and light from Gimarakwa village.
Cheers🌸
Shadow to my light. 