On Tuesday, I woke up and froze. I genuinely thought it was Friday. It felt like Friday. The same thing happened on Wednesday morning. Thursday, I spent half the day thinking it was Saturday. The crazy part? I still managed to do almost everything I’d scheduled for those days. I don’t know what the disconnect was all about.
Right now, I look like a mad woman and I’m not even exaggerating. I’ve been in insane pain. First, it was a normal headache, which turned into a sinus headache. I hate the latter. It always humbles me. Breathing becomes a puzzle to solve because my nostrils feel like they’re burning straight through my humongous forehead.
Still, I’m grateful it’s Friday, or better yet, thank God it’s Friday. This hasn’t been the best week. The electricity kept acting up. I’ve had to keep apologizing for not living up to my deliverables because apparently, KPLC hates consistency. And then, just when KPLC fixed their issues, my body decided, “Hey KPLC, I’ll take it from here.”
On Tuesday morning, my cousin Janet called. As always, I picked up happily. First, of course, I joked about my ringtone to my mom, now it’s “Maserati” by Olakira. I don’t even know how I ended up picking that song on Sunday. But since then, I’ve been looking forward to phone calls (keep in mind I usually hate them). And by the way, I’m never going to stop using songs as my ringtones. Never.
Anyway, I picked up Janet’s call in my usual jovial tone and she said, “Aki Val, I wish I could respond with the same energy…” My heart sank. She had just lost her sister. I managed a “wow,” and she said, “Another loss, Val… so what do we do?” I sighed and told her, “Let’s sit with this for a while, then we’ll figure everything else out later.”
I wouldn’t pretend to know the kind of pain my darling Janet is going through right now, but I can almost feel it. Losing a sibling is tough.
So technically, it’s been a week cooked in hell.
Today, at least, I woke up knowing it was Friday. No confusion. Just Friday.
I promise you, I am genuinely exhausted.
Right now, I’m lying in bed, balancing my laptop on my thighs, trying to squeeze in a little work.
Like I always say, this is life, in all its sacredness.
In the evening, hopefully, I’ll be pain free. I’ll go to my Notes app, open my gratitude folder, and write everything I’m thankful for. Because despite the week’s chaos, I know there’s still a thing or two to be grateful for.
Meanwhile, you beautiful stranger on the other end, I’m sending so much love and light your way.
Smile a little.
Cheers🫶
Shadow to my light. 