Literally slowing down

It is 9:51 a.m right now.

I have intentionally decided that today, I am going to slow down. Darn sure my body and mind could use that.

Slow breaths, graceful steps.

Slowly opening my laptop to catch up on everything I couldn’t yesterday.

On Monday, I woke up in extremely low spirits,  I was like God no! There’s no way I’m going back to that snappy old self.  That’s the thing, once you’ve genuinely tested the good side of life, something slight happens, and the fear of going to the awful life creeps in.

So yeah, Monday morning wasn’t really coming along well. I went back, inside my head and held an entire positive conversation about myself. 

Then I made a small prayer, then I reminded myself how I am entirely obsessed about myself now, that outwardly things shouldn’t really faze me like that. You know a literal bad b*.

And just like that, my day switched up for the good. I went to bed Monday night an extremely happy woman, grateful for how the entire day had played out.

Mastering how to get a grip is something I’m going to celebrate about myself for so long.

Anyway, Tuesday came and I woke up in a rush. Probably afraid of ruining the good momentum I’d built the previous day.

To cut the nitty gritty, it ended up being such a messed up day. I tried doing everything all at once, then I ended up accomplishing nothing.

At around 3:00 p.m.  My head was spinning. Disappointed that I’d wasted an entire day trying to do everything, and eventually accomplishing nothing.

I switched off my laptop. Switched off my internet. Put my phone on DND. Then I sat with myself.

I held another pep talk with myself. I needed it. I am happy to report that I went to bed happy and regulated again.

Slept soundly, until the door bell rang weirdly at 1:45 a.m.

Anyway I’ve woken up a happy girl and I have decided that I am going to slow down.

Gracefully approach everything on my to-do list. ( Technically, I do not have one written, I just have a content calendar that dictates how the rest of my day goes)

Maybe I should go back into actually having a to-do list.

Anyway, yeah. Today, I am literally slowing down. So technically I know my day is going to be long, asin I will finish most of my things later than I usually do. But I know it is going to be worth it.

Looking forward to how the rest of the day is going to be.

Cheers.