Slow living, but in my version.

I am in a phase where I am so in love with life.

About a year ago, I was so insecure about my finances. There’s someone who would constantly ask me “why have you placed so much of your self worth on money?” Having that mindset really did rounds on my self worth.

I know, we live in a world where money unlocks almost everything if not everything. Don’t get me wrong I want to get to a place in my life where I will be secure financially. But I am also learning not to attach my worth to that.

So in between my financial frustrations, I quit. Weird right? No. The job I was working was going to kill me, literally. I woke up one day and I couldn’t stop thinking about quitting. That idea played in my head for almost 3 months. Then finally on a very humid day, I wrote a three line resignation email and I was out.

I know it’s pretty much hectic to land a job now. I have sent a couple of applications. Then I took a break.

For a minute it almost felt like, I was moving through life without any purpose. So I decided to pay more attention to my days.

Yesterday, I was listening to a very gracious sweet soul from YouTube. The title to her video read “Almost 30 with no goals in life”. Well that piqued my interest because I could relate. I listened to her and I was blown away. Because at one point, I was so caught up in planning. A loop of over planning and never just actualizing. I took a pause on that.

Lately I noticed, I live my days as they come. I simply decided as long as I do one wholesome thing in a day that counts for something.

Today I woke up and did my normal morning rituals which include; praying, meditating, journaling, cleaning up then figuring out what next.  I decided to clean the yard. It was super therapeutic. After breakfast, I’ve decided I’m going to crotchet.

Thinking about how life has been playing out lately just makes me break into a huge grin.

I know this might not work out for most people but it is serving me now. I am looking at myself from a whole different lens. I love myself more. I see my worth. I am peaceful.
I am basically just pursuing myself currently.
That’s all that matters in this moment and time.
This is my version of slow living.

Cheers.